Friday, April 11, 2014

One of those days

I woke up today, not in the worse mood, but maybe not happy...I don't know what's wrong. I have so much stuff on my mind. Things I want to get up and do. It's like, every time I plan something, I'm so far away from the out come. I want to finish my back yard, I can't go any further because we need string to tie of the branches that we trimmed. I want another raised bed, no money for that. I want my living room to be full of natural's full of natural dark. Why is it, I have so many plans, but I'm held back by all these limitations? I'm starting to sleep so much through out the days. I don't have drive to get up and do anything.

I look at some of my favorite blogs, and I'm so damn jealous! I know we have all had a share of seems I'm just starting now. I was blessed, 21 I'm in my own place. It's not what I thought. Me and Danny argue over the dumbest stuff. "Why did you leave that there??" "I don't want the doorbell any more". I had some crazy idea that when I moved out, my house would be an empty canvas, waiting for us to paint our life in. Instead, I got a house full of other people's stuff, a brother in law that isn't worth 2 dollars, and problem after problem after problem. I read you guys story and I think, how did you make it? How did you continue through all the small dumb shit? Every day it's a struggle for me to stay happy all day. I'm so angry about it all. I'm happy to not have to worry about buying couches, but if these couches mean I have to continue to be clutter with all your other junk, please just come get it! Take it all! I'd rather be in an empty house than a house full of stuff that's stopping me from adding my love...I guess I really am ungrateful.


  1. Trust me, no matter what my blog may seem like, my real life is NOT all sunshine and daisies. My house is a gigantic mess all the damn time - three kids and a fiancé that can't pick up after himself to save his life. Plus my younger brother stays with us and he's a huge pain in the ass because even though he works, he's always broke, hardly helps with the bills, and doesn't help around the house either so I'm pretty sure I know what you're going through!

    Just today my other half and I got into a fight over something stupid during lunch. You can't be happy all the time. It's okay to be sad/mad sometimes.

    ♥ Duckie.

    1. Thank you so much for this. It's hard to get past things some times when I feel like I have no one to relate too. Danny's brother is going to jail soon...would it be terrible to throw a party? lol


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